observe

this is the view outside of my window today. 

today has been one of those days where it’s difficult to conjure a reason to get out of bed. i’ve been facing all of these internal conflicts lately. lately i’ve just been longing to go home but i know that the world that i’m missing no longer exists. i know that to do what i want later in life i need to stay here and learn. don’t get me wrong, i love school; i just feel so goddamn lonely all the time, even in crowds. 

i’m thinking maybe i’ll take a semester off.
i feel like no one would really notice. i feel detached.

so for now i’ll just stare out the window and watch the world blend together