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Started an altered book project! It’s loosely based around...

Sat, 18 May 2013 13:45:54 -0400

Started an altered book project! It’s loosely based around illustrating dreams. Here’s the inside cover so far.

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Thu, 16 May 2013 18:39:01 -0400

buying flowers with my brother

Thu, 16 May 2013 18:38:25 -0400

buying flowers with my brother

the summer of selfies

Wed, 15 May 2013 22:11:00 -0400

the summer of selfies

kyle maclachlan/agent cooper circa 1990 4evr

Wed, 15 May 2013 20:07:00 -0400

kyle maclachlan/agent cooper circa 1990 4evr

i am so so so excited to see all of my friends from home it feels like christmas morning when all of...

Tue, 14 May 2013 19:44:37 -0400

i am so so so excited to see all of my friends from home

it feels like christmas morning when all of your presents are under the tree but you need to wait for your parents to wake up

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Tue, 14 May 2013 13:46:00 -0400

I’m on something like my 5th or 6th pair of white Reebok Classics. I currently own more than one pair of this brand of shoe and when I need new shoes I just replace the Reeboks with more Reeboks because I know that it’s a good shoe that lasts a while. I kind of feel like a cartoon character that wears the same outfit every episode, except I just wear the same shoes everyday.

Despite stereotypes, I really dont care about shoes

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Tue, 14 May 2013 01:38:00 -0400

I really really really really REALLY really hate it when people use “retard(ed)” as an insult (or any other put down in this vein (i.e blatantly putting someone down by calling them autistic (which I’ve been hearing a lot lately))). I think it’s a serious issue that society dehumanizes the vulnerable and mentally disabled. For whatever reason I don’t call people out on this or let anyone know that this bothers me and I’m a little bit ashamed that I’m not more assertive concerning this issue (even if it’s sort of an insignificant one)

idk part of the reason I’m so sensitive to this is due to the fact that I know personally know people suffering from mental disorders on all ends of the spectrum. But aside from the personal connection I’m bothered by this more than phrases like ‘faggot’ or ‘nigger’ because genuinely retarded people often cannot defend or speak out for themselves…if that makes any sense? I’m not sure if that’s 100% logical reasoning but whatever

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Tue, 14 May 2013 01:12:26 -0400

Although I enjoy photography and look forward to pursuing a career in it, I’ve been trying really hard to expand into other branches of art on my own. Lately it’s been hard to just photograph as a release or for fun because I’m making more and more mental notes of things to look for and I’ve always been hard on myself. I think I produce a lot of my best work in the summertime when I’m just shooting and not so focused on how things will fit into an assignment or my portfolio.

but I’m trying to start drawing again as a way to relax. Even though I kinda suck I’m hoping that maybe if I do it enough I’ll stop sucking. I’m challenging myself this summer by doing an altered book project that I’m hoping to finish before getting back to school - I think that I’m going to try and create a sort of visual dream journal. I’ve been looking at some sketches and dada/surrealist art for inspiration

♡!

Tue, 14 May 2013 00:31:00 -0400

my most recent online purchase was a sweater with a picture of the pope on the front but photoshopped over the pope’s face and hands are a sloth’s face and claws respectively. It’s probably not the wisest purchase since I won’t be able to wear it for a few months but I reasoned that I owed it to myself

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Tue, 14 May 2013 00:18:52 -0400

If you are a self proclaimed “grammar nazi” we probably won’t get along at all. Granted I appreciate good grammar and some grasp on spelling, people that identify as such tend to be the same people that end up rubbing me the wrong way. But I mean it could just be coincidence who knows

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Tue, 14 May 2013 00:11:17 -0400

wow okay so I really like to eat plain sliced bread and when I was younger I’d take a slice of bread, tear off little pieces, and then roll the little pieces into tinier bread balls before eating. my mom yelled at me for doing this because it’s pretty fuckin weird I guess but now that I’m 20 and in my own apartment i’ll occasionally still eat bread that way (if I’m eating by myself) because now nobody can stop me hahahAHA

for every ♡ i get i will make one confession

Mon, 13 May 2013 18:22:47 -0400

Influence ( IX & X )

Sun, 12 May 2013 13:50:00 -0400

Today is mother’s day so it’s almost obligatory that I write something about MY mother. The older I get, the more it becomes apparent to me that being a person’s mother is a pretty difficult job. My mother was already a mother to TWO people (my older brothers) by the time I came around, and I think that the fact she decided to have a third child anyway should be recognized. I mean, the thought taking two kids under the age of 6 to the grocery store sounds like something out of one of my nightmares, but she did it with three of us.

Naples, FL ‘95/’96 (??)

I have always liked my mom. When I was little, she worked at H&R Block (I think? I could be wrong), and she would have to sneak out of the house because if I saw her leaving I would start SCREAMING (apparently). This is just one example out of the generous portion of crap my brothers and I have put my mom through over the years. But if there’s anything my mom is good at, it’s dealing with her children’s crap in a logical, patient, and efficient manner. In contrast, I wish that I were as clever as my mom and I have a tendency to be impatient with certain people. Hopefully with age, I will become as cool as her.
Maybe.
She taught us a lot of practical things early on, like how to save money. She used to read to Kevin and I at night; actual novels, not just picture books. She cooked all of our meals, but she’s the type that won’t cook you another dinner just because you’re the only one that don’t like meatloaf. She will however, add Kraft macaroni and cheese as a side to the meatloaf because she knows that it’s your favorite. Most importantly she (my dad too, I guess), always encouraged us to think for ourselves. All of this has culminated into becoming a not completely inept person, which I’m thankful for.

So thanks for the good genes and the inclination that I’m beginning to develop for The Grateful Dead, mom. And for willingly watching My Strange Addictions with me.

Also worth mentioning is my aunt (my mom’s older sister), Kathy.
Kathy has lived nearby for as long as I can remember. Although she doesn’t have any children of her own, she’s played a huge role in the lives of my brothers, my cousins, and myself as sort of a third parent. In fact, growing up she had a membership at a community pool and we all pretended to be her kids to get in.

Maine, 2010. Kathy is the on the bench between my brother and I.

She was with me on my first trip to Disney World. We would sleep at her house on weekends, and she always had Ben and Jerry’s for us to eat even though it costs a little bit extra. She also taught me all of the words to American Pie by Don McLean when I was 8. Even as I got older and didn’t have as much time to hang out, she stops by my house almost every weekend to say hello. It’s one of the things I miss most from home, actually

so shout out to my aunt Kathy for being awesome

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Sat, 11 May 2013 22:08:35 -0400

My eye

Fri, 10 May 2013 17:45:21 -0400

My eye

Today was the first time that my photographs were publicly exhibited.One of them was hung UPSIDE...

Fri, 10 May 2013 17:04:00 -0400

Today was the first time that my photographs were publicly exhibited.

One of them was hung UPSIDE DOWN.

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Fri, 10 May 2013 14:09:33 -0400

Abercrombie: why I hate it

Fri, 10 May 2013 13:03:00 -0400

Don’t know whether I’m happy or extremely annoyed that everyone suddenly hates Abercrombie

Personally I have been boycotting them ever since I got into their target customer age group, for the same reasons that everyone’s hating on them now. I mean, there weren’t as many public statements from the CEO talking about how he only markets to “thin, beautiful, cool” customers but it was never a secret that Abercrombie and it’s affiliates only hire “models”.
I’m not really a proponent of the philosophy that “everyone is beautiful!!!!!!” But at the same time the symmetry of a person’s face or how much fat they’ve accumulated or the size of their breasts has nothing to do with their qualifications as a cashier or menial salesperson and shouldn’t be taken into consideration during the hiring process. I don’t really understand how it’s any different than not hiring someone because they’re black (for example), because it all boils down to discrimination based on aesthetics.

I had a friend that used to make fun of me because of how much this store’s philosophy rubs me the wrong way. I remember her telling me once that I was a loser in that joking-but-not-really-joking way for refusing to go in the store . Granted we were in 9th grade or something, but in retrospect I can see that the company’s markets had, on some level, influenced the way that my friend viewed me (i.e. this brand somehow gives me superiority over you).

TLDR I guess what I’m getting at is that I’m offended by Abercrombie because I am and always have been sort of a “loser”. But simultaneously I’m proud that I’ve never been cool enough to wear their clothes because they’re assholes perpetuating asshole viewpoints to susceptible youths with overinflated egos. And I feel a lot better now that other people are sort of starting to catch on because I always thought that I was the only one bothered by this somewhat stupid issue

but why are people only bothered by it now??

self portraitDecember 2012

Thu, 09 May 2013 17:18:57 -0400

self portrait
December 2012